Pain Dreams and Desire - Ann Han

Nessa's life is shattered in a single night-her father is murdered, and she is left traumatized by an act of brutal violence that changes her forever. Desperate to escape the ghosts of her past, she leaves England for Boston, determined to reclaim her life-and perhaps herself.
 
Her new boss, Nathaniel, is a man who thrives on control. At work and beyond, he keeps his emotions tightly guarded, believing relationships are distractions he can't afford. But when a high-stakes business trip takes them to New York, the tension simmering between them becomes impossible to ignore.
 
Haunted by fear yet longing to feel alive again, Nessa asks Nathaniel for something she has never known-how to experience pleasure without terror. As their connection deepens and desire ignites, both are forced to confront the walls they've built to protect themselves.
 
In surrendering control and trust, they must decide whether healing, intimacy, and love are risks worth taking.
 
Pure Desire is an emotionally intense, sensual romance about trauma, recovery, and the courage it takes to want again.